TEST OF TOLERANCE

This Is THE STORY OF MY RIGHT KNEE.

4 years back,
while dancing on one of the bollywood songs, my knee gave away and i collapsed.
It was really bad. I was crying like nobody's business.
My mum, who was inside, using the PC, heard me scream and thought I screamed cos' I was fighting with my sister. -_- [right.]
My sister, in my mum's room, was doing a facial for herself so was busy and couldn't be bothered. She was lost in her own world.

AND THERE I WAS,

IN THE LIVING ROOM,

UNABLE TO MOVE,

AND CRYING cos' it was hurting real bad.

THEN AFTER a few screams to my mum, SHE FINALLY sensed something was wrong and came out to check what happened. She helped me get up. And brought me to my room for what seems like ages.
I saw the doc at the polyclinic next day.
Was referred to Changi General Hospital.
My X-Ray was done.
The doc said no probs in my bones. I probably sprained it.
Gave me some heating rub and bandage.
I limped around in school for TWO WEEKS before it became alright for me to walk.


THE NEXT YEAR, 2005,
same problem came back in the 2nd half of the year. This time,
it came randomly.
Saw the doc again. Got X-ray again. EVEN BLOOD TEST.No probs detected. Was limping again for about a MONTH.


THE NEXT NEXT YEAR, 2006,
SAME PROBLEM. 2ND HALF OF THE YEAR.
NO X-RAYS ANYMORE[cos' i didn't want]. LIMPED AROUND IN SCHOOL FOR A MONTH OR A LIL MORE. Saw a Chinese physician. He helped. BUT, the whole year, the pain came and went like as if it had mood swings!

LAST YEAR, 2007,
My leg gave way AGAIN while I WAS RUNNING.[note:2ND HALF OF THE YEAR]
I collapsed.
I had enough.
Dad referred me to the TOP ORTHOPAEDIST IN SINGAPORE- Gleneagles Hospital-but he was under SGH[Singapore General Hospital] SPECIALIST.
He made me go through blood test and X-rays and one more test[full body scan..something like that!].
He SAID : I was extra set of tissues at my knee area which I was born with. Over the years, they have thickened and become TOO STIFF.[too contract].
SO, he told me a simple exercise to do to expand/loosen those muscles. Cos' if not, they will rub against my bones and the friction causes SHARP PAIN.
I DID the exercise.
My knee became FINE at a just nice time cos' It recovered completely 2 days before I caught my flight to go to India for my sister's wedding prep. and the wedding itself!

COME 2008,
AUGUST,
-->note: 2ND HALF OF THE YEAR
MY KNEE GAVE WAY AGAIN!
why am I NOT SURPRISED?
Went to the doc.
FIRST TIME: TO CURE MY LEFT FOOT ARC SPRAIN.
By the time it got cured, my knee prob came back.
I REFUSE TO SEE THE DOCS ANYMORE.
BUT yeah,
i couldn't take it anymore recently.
It's been a MONTH NOW. And the PAIN HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE :(
I HATE TO FEEL SO DEPENDENT IN SCHOOL.
As much as I love you haniel,clifford and Damien sweets for being So kind and helpful,
I HATE THE FEELING of BEING A BURDEN.
I HATE IT.
ASK my dear RATNA, OR GRACE ...OR EVEN CUI HUA!!!!
THEY ALLLLLLLL KNOW
that i'm a FEMINIST.
INDEPENDENT GIRL.
I'm so not used to taking so much help.
I'm sick of this pain.
I'm growing impatient day by day.
This knee problem is persisting.
And every doc's got his own say.
TODAY:
I SAW THE DOC YET AGAIN.
THIS TIME:
A NEW HOSPITAL!
yayyyiee. -_-
It's SGH THIS TIME!
Sometimes,
I feel like a specimen.
Someone on whom, you can do countless x-rays and scans and tests and take a wild guess on what's probably wrong with her knee!
like seriously doctors, I AM NOT A SPECIMEN !
Get A LIFE!

So my Beloved and Dearest Docs Of Singapore,
FIND THE ROOT PROBLEM OF MY KNEE AND TREAT IT ASAP!
COS I'M SICK OF IT!
It's hurting to limp. It's hurting to get up when I sleep. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling like a burden/dependent soul.
I'm tired of your countles trial and error methods on me.
IF YOU KNOW, THEN TELL ME DAMN IT. IF YOU DONT, THEN SAY SO! ADMIT IT!
DONT GIVE ME BULLSHIT! NO TRIAL N ERROR OKAY?
NO MEANS NO.
COS' IT'S SERIOUSLY PAINFUL. AND IT CONCERNS MY HEALTH GOD DAMMNIT!

so please, i beg of you. please help me if you can. really. sincerely,
i mean it. please help....if you can. if not, just don't bother wasting yours and my time.
Cos' don't you think time's just a bit too precious to be wasted? If not yours, at least mine is dudee.

Love,
the crippled lady-isha sharma.




I SO WISH THE DOCTOR AT SGH SEES THIS!!!!!




anyways,
time check srjcians: 17 DAYS TO PROMOS! WORK WORK WORK! MUG MUG MUG! NO MORE FREE TIME! KEEP THE MUGGIN SPIRIT ON!
LET's SOAR TOGETHER! (:


love,
insaneintelligence.(:
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